lavenders & thoughts

do you know how people always say "just be yourself" but they end up complaining about how you are? this, for one has been a thought i reminisce over allll the time. #1. ignore those complaints- but not completely. remember, no one is perfect. not me, not you, just no one.  That's why I say, "not completely". Who's to know that in their complaints- there are things that'll push yourself to be a better person. Improve but still love yourself. #2. being a "better person" is not for the society. be.a.better.person.for.YOU.  You have a whole life ahead of you, and you'll be growing along with the time. And through all that, you'll understand more what being a better person for yourself means. #3. don't  hold on to only "just be yourself". I'm not saying you can't be yourself, because that my dear is good! but it's dangerous when you solely hold on to that. Don't let it get in the way of ne...

I've been loving listening to some youtube channels while studying so I just wanted to share some of my favourites! To note, I'm more of a calm music person so too much makes me lose tooooo much focus. So yea here it is: *not numbered by ratings* #1. youtube: halidonmusic My go-to for classicals Chopin, Vivaldi etc. My current  personal favourite would be: Classical Music for Brain Power - Mozart #2. youtube: asmr rooms For background sounds!! -the LOTR's background all the way for me; Lord of the Rings Inspired ASMR - Mirkwood - Woodland Realm Ambience with river, rustling leaves UHD #3. youtube: Andrela-Chxn I've only recently discovered this channel, but there are a few other mixes like this- the exact perfect vibe I wanted 🙋 I'm actually listening to this one right now, I love it!! 1 hour of kpop piano music | s t u d y & r e l a x | that's all for now hehe, thanks!

So... I got a scholarship! The best thing is that- it's at my dream university and the exact course I want. Alhamdulillah.  - oh that would be Sunway College, CAT-ACCA. I've actually started my online classes, it was early April. So far I've had 6 tests in total for the 2 subjects I'm currently taking; FA1 and MA1. Am I worried? hella YEA! the min requirement for my scholarship is 65% and we've been having past-faced classes for this whole month. Alhamdulillah my wifi is all good so I'm not having many problems in that case, just tired sometimes. But I'm not complaining, I chose this course and I knew how it might be. Plus, I can't tell you how much I enjoy learning all this! I've also joined a volunteering club at Sunway- in which I applied for an IP Programme (it's like being sub-directors) and got selected yeay! I had a video interview with them actually, so that was a new experience... I got so nervous tho 😰 I'm now an IP of...

It's been so long. I think it was hard for me to write anything because I was always feeling the need to adhere to "blog writing standards", I'm not even sure what that really is but I guess I was just pushing myself to write well. But now that I think about it, who cares really. It's my blog and I'm not here to expect people to read it. I should just let myself write the way I enjoy it. It's kinda hard honestly because there are times I'm filled with thoughts or opinions but then there'll be days where I just can't do anything or think much at all. So whoever stumbles upon my blog and thereby along with my thoughts, please bear with me :) End reflection: enjoy doing things your way. you don't have to ikut orang lain to be great.